GeekTransformed

Pestilence I bring to destroy my the fruit of my efforts. Plague my self with mental illness War I created through my own actions Death will come at my on hand. I am my own personal apocalypse.

I keep looking but can not find what I seek. Maybe I don't even know what it is I am looking for. On my journey to find what is missing, I have become lost. Now I am looking for myself

My heart rests in this place A void created by my own mistakes In this dark void I hear a call I shell go and follow this voice Once more let us see if we can leave this void.

For we all know — and those who've been through a break up know it better than most — that with love comes the risk of loss and the risk of being hurt. And we also know that we're wired for love, that no matter how many times you've been hurt, you'll likely try again at some point.

"Loving oneself is the prerequisite for our psychological and spiritual sanity. We have been created to honor and love our existence. This is the deepest reason behind the instinct of survival among all living things. However, as we evolve, so does the concept of self-love. There is lower self-love and higher self-love; there is distorted self-love and there is conscious, intelligent and awakened self-love. In order to love oneself, one needs to know oneself and become intimate with the subtle dimensions of one’s existence. That self that we are born to love is not static; it is constantly changing. The very reason for its existence is

I am the thing i fear most. I am in truth the worst of the worst. I am my worst enemy. Can I learn to love myself again? Only time my heal my guilt.

The moment when there is nothing left to say. The emptiness is a void that never seems to fill up.

Starting back at square one means you get to play the game differently. This time I plan to win.

Did you ever feel like you are waiting for the waves to break.  Hoping for the shoreline to change. Like you are lost in a rip current and just waiting for a breath of fresh air.

Well I am back after a much needed break from the net. Alot has changed and somethings remain the same. My experiences have brought me to a new point in my life. Although I was/am still heart broken  because I allowed outside influence to cloud my better judgment. These influences made me act in a manner that destroyed any chance of a possible friendship with a great person; who is now gone from my life. I had thought about writing them and try to explain myself and actions but I have come to the conclusion; this may make matters worse.  I chosen to let it go by writing here. This situation has become a life lesson and I am so very sorry fo